haizz...
this week is not a great week for me.
so many heart aches in just one week ._.
heart ache number 1.: my e-maths paper lost 4 marks becoz of a careless mistake.
heart ache no.2: my fren starts toking those depressing things again
heart ache no.3: my classification shoot failed due to my lousy aiming + the teacher go make the board slanted so its hard to shoot.
heart ache no.4: cross-country run. did not do my best and so the 3 girls (izzati, yesmeen and jiali) took over me at the last min.
heart ache no.5: my dad just got fired and so now he is jobless.

haiz =/
nvm nvm.
im gonna try to pick myself up frm this whole bunch of failures.
guess God is trying to show me how hard it is to get over these heart aches and treat it as if it was no big deal.
guess God is also trying to show me tt i sometimes i cld be the cause of someone becoming like someone hu is not realli happy.
i have seen how ppl suffered.
and so im gonna fix those damages tt i have caused.(well most of them)
well wad has been done cannot be undone.
so im just gonna learn frm these things and start working frm there.
im gonna do wadever i can to help others as well as help myself.
ive alreadi started doin tt.
like helping mrs lee load some stuff onto the car and becoz of tt janice,farhana and me were the last students to leave the place.
janice even got scolded by her mum becoz she went home late.
npcc ma =x
must help ppl derhs lol.
ahem.
anyways,
today's chinese new yr celebration was soso ba.
i almost fell asleep during the first half of the performance but after tt things started to spice up.
den after the whole performance thing we all went home.
well some still stayed bak to watch the teachers release the coi into the pond.
other than tt the rest went bak.
i went bak to get rdy to go out wif shan shan and meiqi and jose.
we went to douby ghaut den walk walk around.
den jose went home while me ,meiqi and shan go around bishan to find for my shoes o.o
to buy them of course.
we took some neoprints here and there lol.
while we were looking for my shoes,
we saw desmond and gang o.o
desmond saw us and he went "ehhhh" and point at us wif his freakishly smiling face =x
den after tt bought the shoes tt i wan lerh we went home.
was dead tired.
waiting for the bus and saw my dad.
first thing saw his face i noe tt he has been fired liao.
see im so smart =x
but still its kinda sad o.o
more nagging in the house frm 1st march onwards.
less $$
more difficult times =/
and more conflicts -.-
i alreadi sms to my bro telling him tt our dad got fired lerh.
still no reply yet.
=/
haiz..


neoprints removed.
scared later ppl anyhow take lol.

valentines day =/
dun find this day special for some reason ._.
lol
first thing in the morn got one guy(someone i duno at all) suddenly pass me somethin sia and then walk away o.o
den huiying saw another guy walkin towards me wif somethin in his hand den she stare at him until he stress den he turn bak and went bak to his class lol.
i was like praying tt i wld not receive anymore lol.
if i dun take den i wld onli be wasting their time and money sia zzzz
i take den they might have the wrong idea =/
oh oh and eddu gave me a valentine's gift.
thx eddu xD
ure oso a dear fren and of course ppl wld nv 4get a person like u lol.
anywayssss,
i got full marks for my chem formula quiz xDD
den the e-maths i tink i just lost 4 marks alreadi lol.
the using the duno wad sq method i go wrote the plus sign become a minus sign -.-
so of course its wrong.
haiz 4 marks gone =/
smack the paper lol.
the interview thing after sch was abit ermmm complicated? xD
i did not expect mr latiff to ask so many ques lol.
while waiting for mr latiff and the other teacher(i duno wads her name lol) to arrive janice,siti,mithran and me were chatting all the way lol.
those hu wan buy 'high' quality shampoo go get them frm the one and onli Mithran! xD
he will giv u free mithran shampoo lol.
anti-dandruff somemore.
no shame no shame, no shampoo no shampoo.
man i heard the wrong things lol.
mithran say no shame i heard no shampoo -.-
my ears got somethin wrong lol.
not gonna type anything long.
just hope my com wld be fixed soon -.-

ahh today i just saw my old buddy ding xuan at 7-11 lol
i was playing wif the slurpee machine and my sis taking her own cup of black current slushie till i saw 2 guys den they were like staring at me den i tot i did somethin wrong o.o
den while i was paying for the drinks one of the guys go call my name den i was wondering hu called my name and my sis was like giving me tt "ohhh is tt ur bf?" look. -.-
well of course tt guy was ding xuan lol.
known him since p4 =/
onli when i went out of the 7-11 store den he go ask me wad sch i went to lol.
den blah blah..
anywayssss,
first thing in the morning i spoilt my mood for no reason.
i oso duno y i anyhow spoil my mood for wad =/
wadever things i say he starts twisting my words here and there -.-
the prob wif me is i cant express myself properly.
i oso duno y lol.
well ive had enuff and i did not wan to spoil my mood and his mood further.
so i just kept quiet abt the whole thing though there were still things to say.
but well i noe he is pissed off and im oso pissed off so wads there to say right now =/
i make mistakes too sometimes.
and of course i wun noe wad mistakes i have done till u guys tell me.
i have misjudged u and im sorry.
i nv said tt u were heartless.
i nv did say tt i wld leave u alone to rot.
i onli said i wld leave u alone to think abt wad ure doin.
if i tok more i wld make it worse.
and of course i wld add on to the stress.
smsing one person a day is already gd enuff.
how i wished tt i cld onli sms one person onli coz my bill is like exploding due the massive amt of msgs ive been receiving.
how i wish tt i cld just block those ppl frm msging me.
u just dun noe how fortunate u are. zzz nvm i wun say anything now.
wadever things u said like the past is important is right.
i nv did tot of the importance of history tt way.
uve already helped me open my eyes to these kind of things.
argh dam it.
ure stubborn
so dam freaking stubborn =.=
(but i nv did say i am gonna giv up on ya)
i shall not continue.
anyways,
my com keeps on disconnecting me frm my game whenever i play it.
im a little pissed off abt it =/
haiz..wad can i do abt it?
its an old com.
but still i cant bear to let it go lol.(though sometimes i feel like smashing it -.-)
dun feel sad xintong =/
u still got ur frens to support u der.
dun go brood over the whole break up thing.
u just have to carry on wif life. (though i still tink wad shuitong did was abit stupid)
tts y i dun wanna get a bf right now.
getting a broken heart right now cld cause massive dmg and might ruin my whole future.
i rather get a broken heart when i graduate than get it now lol.
well even if i got it now i wld still do wadever i can to pick myself up (though i noe its hard. but still there aint any harm trying)
i have to be strong sometimes lol.
ever since tt p6 and p4 incident nv again wld i wan to distract myself frm such things o.o
well ive learnt frm my mistake and i wld try not to commit it again
and im getting a little pissed off by chin chang's lame attitude.
making enemies is not fun and its NOT COOL.
im not like u hu loves to make enemies for no reason.
kenneth did not even do anything to u and still u treat him as ur enemy.
wad is this =.=
if u anyhow treat others like an enemy to u den treat me like ur enemy as well.
and STOP ACTING STUPID.
once uve made a mistake ADMIT TT U DID IT and den APOLOGISE(wif sincerity of course) =.=
ure onli deluding urself by tinking tt ure right all the time.
(once again im assuming)
if ure afraid of making mistakes hear this.
u wld onli learn after making mistakes.
but of course u shld not let failures conquer u.
and it applies to all of us.
*phew*
i shld learn to calm myself down after a terrible explosion.
*breathe in* *breathe out*
monday have to go for the dry-shoot.
1.45pm den leave classroom.
oh and tt reminds me,
joseph have been improving in his character lately.(though there are still some ppl hu dislike him and did not see any improvement)
well at least i saw some improvement i guess o.o
well done?
ok i tink i typed in long enuff. plus its alreadi 11.33pm o.o
sleeping late aint gd for my health lol.
i tink i shld be letting my sis use the com now o.o

ahhhhhhhhhh
first thing received my A-maths results i almost wanted to bang the wall wif my head sia -.-
i made a stupid careless mistake lorrrr
my 'y' suddenly disappear frm my equation zzz
if not can score A1 LER =.=
ahhh me and my cock eye zzz...
a small test like tt can cause my heart to ache so much x.x
still there were gd news today =/
mr sham gonna extend the deadline for our book reviews.(yay?)
so we can have more time to read finish the book and then pass up our book reviews. (and present abt the book we read -.-)
ms koh say she is goin to test us on the formulas on the chemicals o.o
things like potassium hydroxide (KOH) and all tt.
tts the onli compound i onli remember coz our chemistry teacher is ms koh ma.
so i onli can remember tt compound=x
tmr got NPCC.
most of the time we wld be wearing the uniform (which means its drills time =/)
honetly,
even after goin for those initiated trainings,
we did improve but still the standard is not there lol.
oh well,
if we cant perform up to vincent's standard we r so gonna get killed by him.
b4 tt i shall prepare my funeral and obituary first lol.
and of course,
write my will xD
anyways,
my fren wans me to stop using singlish and speak more english lol.
it is true tt my standard of eng is dropping due to the massive amt of singlish coming out of my mouth.
my grammer sux, vocabulary oso sux, i dun tink i have any hope left for improving in eng lol.
stating the fact tt my chinese oso sux,
i tink i wun score veri well based on language lol.
im not gonna type in a long post for today.
no time to type a long one lol.
and wif so many tests coming up ,
i tink i wld hardly have any time to use the com -.-.
haiz...
wad choice do i have? =/

finally,
the feud between us and joseph has ended(i guess).
joseph truly wans to change now(i tink).
well we shall see how he progresses over the nxt few weeks and mths =/
its gonna be hard for him in the earlier parts of the whole thing but soon it wld be as ez as abc lol.
just hope this time he means wad he say and wld not giv excuses if he goes against wadever he said b4 =/
anyways tmr gonna have another initiated training lol.
andddddd
during lessons i fell asleep =x
well almost lol
until i ate curry and went into hyperactive mode xD
heavy bags and stuff.
just last night i learnt a few things frm my fren.
not gonna say it buttttttt
he just made me feel like studying lol.
but somehow,
whenever i feel like studying,
and if i touch a book,
i wun even wan to read it anymore xDDD
duno y =/
got bak my social studies test today.
and guess how much i got without studying + forgetting wadever i read?
28/40 =x
its an A2 lol
tyco sia lol
if i remembered all those stuff i revised b4 i wld have score higher o.o''
and tt mr ng keeps on delaying the day when we r gonna take bak our test paper on chapt 1.
he delay and delay and all of us moan and moan lol.
but he say tt he gonna giv bak on thurs liao.
hope he means wad he say.
though i noe i will not score veri well in it,
but still,
I WAN TO NOE MY MARKS =X
mr ng said nobody score full marks sia.
not surprising actually.
it was a hard paper lol.
this is wad i got so far for all my mini tests:

Biology: 20/25 A1
A-Maths(pop quiz): 18/18 A1
A-Maths(test): 18/25 A2
Chemistry(pop quiz 1): 10/10 A1
Chemistry(pop quiz 2): 10/15 B3
Social studies: 28/40 A2
Physics(pop quiz): 8/10 A1
Chinese: unknown (its not tt i dun wan to post it. i realli duno wads my score for it yet lol)

quite bad actually =/
hey those were ez tests and still i scored a B there -.-
ahhhhhhh
wads happening to my grammer =.=
zzz..
anywayssss,
when farhana told me to sit still,
she sprayed perfume on my neck in class.
and it was sooo cooling but still alittle shocking lol.( i made alot of noise right after she sprayed it xD)
until now the smell still there ._.
ziling said first thing she came into the class she was wondering hu was the bloodly person hu put on the perfume.
and i happen to be tt bloodly person o.o (but not i put de la.)
coz she hates those perfume de smell ma lol.
still got alot of hw to do.
and tons of research ._.
i tink i better go do them now b4 i slp late again lol.
and then after tt maybe i cld live in solitude xD
peacefulness and quietness =x

msg frm vincent.
if u all didnt view his blog post den u can see it here. :
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i know, for sure, you would pop by and read my blog. so i'm going to post this entry in rebuttal to the situation.the issue now is the matter of people not liking his attitude towards the rest. it might not be very nice, but you guys are old enough to think, to solve everything over the table calmly. yes, the attitude of his might be too far. but have you compromised to the very end with him? it takes two hands to clap. even if his attitude is not much of any liking, you still showed him your attitude, as a rebuttal. he is wrong to have done that in the first place. but on top of that, you are also wrong to have showed him your attitude.it's not the case where everyone hates his attitude, he would be wrong. no, absolutely. the rest of you might not like his attitude, but that doesn't make you right to have rebutted him. in this case, you are wrong as well. in all friendships, there will be bound to be friction between each other. but it is how you resolve everything and save the friendship.i'm not very sure what's the issue in depth, in details. but i'm very sure that, if in any case, should there be any hostility within the group, then i shan't submit an official proposal to the officers for the 6th non-commissioned officers' committee. you all will not have any post. because, you are not fit to be my ncos in the unit.i hope this will be resolved as soon as possible. if not, then so sorry, i might need to retract the post of nco from the involved parties as well. i don't wish to have any power struggle, corruption or conflict within my executive committee for the unit.if you need me to interfere by person, then, you will be sorry. because i will treat the whole matter very seriously, as a cadet inspector for the unit.
signing off,VincenTimBe`
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he does have a point.
all of us have a part in this whole situation.
if we just had peace between each other all the unhappiness wld not even exist.
but we shld not make peace between each other just for the sake of having the positions as ncos.
we shld at least learn to understand each other first b4 making any action or accusing each other.
joseph,
if u nid to change,
ppl around wld always be there to help u.
if u realli wan to change,
even ppl like diyana wld be willing to help u change for the better.
at the same time we wld oso change if we nid to.
we just have to work together as a squad or somethin =/
all for one, one for all.
if ure left out ,
the squad wld be meaningless.
even if ppl like chin chang were left out or somethin we wld alreadi lose our name as a squad.
just like if ppl like us are not willing to change to land in comfortably wif others we wld alreadi be like expelled o.o
actually i oso dun understand wad im toking abt -.-
i just summarise it for u.
we need peace.
vincent does not wan to lead a bunch of ncos wanabe wif conflicts here and there.
if we all work together his job might become easier for him to handle.

its the first day of the mth and as promised,
im gonna post again =/
the whole time in class i was not paying attention at all lols.
somemore tmr got the toooooot run..zzzzz..
anyways,
after sch had to go for the meeting on deciding which design shld we have for our nco t-shirt.
the guys did theirs and we did ours.
den we just picked part of the designs here and there lol.
dennis always disturb us.
david oso lol.
both nth better to do =x.
while me and the girls were discussing the design,
when joseph was called by duno hu ,
the way he walk,
and how he reacted was abit too erm how shld i put it,
'act cool'.
i wasnt gonna say anything but farhana just turned to me and asked me "hey wads up wif joseph?" wif tt look on her face lols.(see im not the onli one hu tinks he is showing too much attitude)
the other day during the dry shoot joseph said tt everyone has attitude.(i noe tt u purposely said tt loud. im not stupid)
true,
sometimes we have nth better to do so we show attitude here and there but pls take note that some of us dun show as much attitude as the rest.
the way joseph showed it was abit tooo much.
i noe diyana made u angry joseph.
diyana alreadi trying to be nice to u since u told her to.
but when she was nice to u the other day,
u simply 'diao' her.
den if we not nice to u den u not happy.
dun realli noe wad u wan.
others cannot diao u but u wan to diao ppl.
if u r telling ppl to stop doin somethin but u urself are doin it den dun even tink abt telling others not do it.
and just to let u noe,
janice is alreadi starting not to like ur attitude =/
she isnt those kind of short-tempered ppl but still she is annoyed by the way u act.
this proves tt u realli REALLI have to change.
i noe u wun listen.
coz u tink tt we wan to destroy ur life.
and u still refuse to tink smartly.
just to let u noe, (im gonna do a little preaching now lol)
when u die,
if u dun believe in the Lord and do alot of bad things here on earth and kip on sinning u might not be happy in ur afterlife.
well i wun noe whether u wld go to hell or heaven coz onli the Lord can decide it.
but still ,
making others unhappy just to make u happy is too selfish.
pls tink abt our feelings and how we r feeling now.
i noe u wld say tt u have feelings too.
but its always best to tink abt others first than to put urself on top.
the way u r behaving now is kind of inacceptable.
and ure getting support for the wrong thing.
those ppl dun noe u well.
so of course they wld still tink ure nice and all tt.
let me remind u tt u were not like tt last time.
where is the old joseph quak tt i use to noe?
if u tink tt having a "stead" is all tt u nid in life im so gonna smack u.
the way u reacted right after u were rejected was like "die die,im not gonna have a stead liao. nid to find another one ASAP."
i just dun get it.
y u guys r so desperate to get a gf at this kind of age?
despos..
just hope regina does not get trick by ur innocent behaviour.
u r nice by nature.
but u have just made urself a horrible person.
i noe u wan to become a chairman and all tt.
but pls note tt a chairman is nth without ppl respecting and supporting him.
the way u behave now wld not help u to gain votes to becoming the chairman.
if u were the nice little boy i once knew, i wld not have any objections on u becoming the chairman.
but now if u ask whether i shld giv u my vote if i nid to,
i dun tink i'll even tink.
i wld just straight away giv my vote to someone more capable.
tt person may not be as fast and sharp as u,
but at least tt person puts others on top of him.
enuff of crap alreadi.
anyways,
denis lost my pink book strap zzz..
he owes me $2.10!!! xD
see la dennis.
play somemore.
anyhow take ppl's book.
take until can lose thing de -.-
nvm i get another one.
momobun~
lol
im simply obsessed wif tt word =x.
and i almost choked to death while drinking water.
coz i laughed my head out while pouring water into my mouth and tears welled up in my eyes xDDD. and then i choked o.o.
and some of the water tt went in was trapped in my lungs =x.(tt was how it felt like.of course water was not trapped in my lungs la if not i wld have died by now xD)kekeke
dad nagging lerhs.
i go off com ler x.x